Had a good weekend. Got to see Devan, even though it was only for a couple of days, it was great to spend time with her again. Matt was really excited to see her too! Imagine that! He didn't want her to stay at school on Sunday. LOL!
I have been feeling good this last week. I have my 4th round of Chemo next week. I can't wait to finish the last cycle of A/C. Then I will wait for 3 weeks and start the 12 weeks of Taxol chemo, once a week. That one is supposed to make me really tired, but I am not supposed to get as sick as I did with this.
I try not to question why I got cancer after Abel had it last year. I know that God had a reason for this to happen to us again. I don't know why yet, but I know there is a reason. I know that I will be okay and we will get through this. It will make us stronger as a family and we will appreciate each other and what we have even more. But, some days, I GET SO FRUSTRATED WITH THIS CRAP! I get tired of-- feeling tired, being bald, being bloated, feet swelling, getting phantom pains, getting weird hives, aching all over, joints hurting, stomach hurting.....................just crappy feeling. But Lord, I am so thankful that it is me and not one of my children, or anyone's children. When I start feeling sorry for myself, I think about the people who have terminal cancer or the kids that are having to go through chemo! It breaks my heart. So thank you God, thank you for letting it be me instead of someone else I care about. Thank for not letting it be someone else's child.
Next week will be a long week - I have chemo on Tuesday, Devan's birthday is on Wednesday, Abel has his follow up appointments at MD Anderson next Wednesday and Thursday. Wish us luck!
Hugs!
Yolanda
1 comment:
Your such a great trooper sister and have such a big heart. Thats how I know everything is going to be fine. I was just thinking about Devan I can't believe your going to have a 20 yr old. LOL! You should be so proud that you have raised such a wonderful women. I love you sister.
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